Wednesday, November 4, 2009

So Cold (without her)

Damn,I want my baby back
It's so cold without her
Cold without her
She's gone
Now I'm alone, no one to hold on
Cause she was the only one
And I know I was dead wrong
But if you u u
If you u u
See her sooonn
Ask her will she forgive me

If you ever see her
If you ever meet her
If you ever get a chance to sit down and talk to her
Then tell her it's so cold
It's so cold, it's so cold
Here without her
And tell her I miss her
Tell her I need her
Tell her I want her
I really want her to come back home, back to keep me warm
Tell her I'm sorry, I'm really sorry
Can you forgive me?
Please forgive me
And come back home, keep me safe and warm

Now my baby's really gone
I don't know if she's coming home
My love's up, I fucked up
I know
Tell me what to do to get her back
Back where her heart belongs, been gone from me too long

So if you u u, seen my boo o o
Please can you u u
Can you tell her for me

If you ever see her
If you ever meet her
If you ever get a chance to sit down and talk to her
Let her know it's so cold
It's so cold, it's so cold
Here without her
And tell her I miss her
Tell her I need her
Tell her I want her
I really want her to come back home, back to keep me warm
Tell her I'm sorry, I'm really sorry
Can you forgive me?
Please forgive me
And come back home, keep me safe and warm

If you ever see her
If you ever meet her
If you ever get a chance to sit down and talk to her
Let her know it's so cold
It's so cold, it's so cold
Wïthout her

Friday, October 30, 2009

"Here Without You"

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

Thursday, October 29, 2009

T.T now i know why i always fail in exams, i never read things properly ~.~
dam G. how could you possibly misinterpret what was written extremly cleary in front of you then make a judgement that was completly off.
It jus funny how i only realise how wrong i am after the consequences.

I'm always reading things one time, then make judgements on it. Then after reading again.. i still dont see the real meaning.. it usually take 3 or 4 times before i actually find out what it means. but then it's too late.

You have used up all your $ then you cant do anything.

If Only If Only..
If Only you were here

Technology, Blessing or Curse?

Knock Knock..
Who is there?

People in suits and holding booklets and brochures.

i wonder who they are.

- Oh so u say you've been here before, well then how can i help you.
- 'We were just passing by thought you might want one of these brochures"
- oh okay, i'll read it later, bye.

The front page has a huge title and a picture of a city in the background.
The title says "Technology, Blessing or Curse?"
I am just staring at it for a few minutes, reading over it a couple of times just to make sure i am not reading wrong. I wasn't wrong, it definitely said "Technology, Blessing or Curse"

it just made me think - Wow what a strong message, especially in this world of technology. Thinking over the message it made me wonder, what would the world be like without technology. Would it be a better place? How would people live? What would everyone be like?
It also made me of the reasons behind technology, i was trying to balance out the positives and negative.

Positives
- Everyone is linked by technology
- Makes life easier
- Instant Messaging

Negatives
- Energy to use technology is destroying the earth
- Technology became a primary source of information
- Natural Links have become smaller or broken
- Changing technology is changing humanity

So now looking back at the Message "Technology, Blessing or Curse"

In my opinion i think that it is a blessing in the sense that people have came up with innovative ways to make the world smaller and make people closer via technology. But i think that it is a Curse when people start using technology as a way of life. The curse of technology is the affect it has on people.

Technology would be good if it was not used to be lazy, technology should not be a way of life. It should be something that we use in life, not to make it easy and be lazy but to make the world a better place.
I think that Technology would not be as bad if it did not replace things like speech (unless you cannot speak), by creating things like instant messaging, creating an alternative to normal speech. The alternative is not the same, the thing with normal speech, not technologically enhanced, is the sound of the voice that you can recognize and the emotions put in. By using the alternative - instant messaging - it is not the same, words that are typed up don't have a voice or emotions, even if you are using emoticons is it really the same?

But of course with the changing technology there are other ways of communicating, such as voice chatting or web camera. These ways of communicating i have nothing against, they are a good way of keeping in touch with those people that are far away and it feels the same as if they were right next to you.

So Technology is both a blessing and a curse. Depending on how you use it of course.

^.^

☺ ~OnlyGabs†az!~

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

21/10/09

It's not you, its me..
The phrase is very cliche and i know that, although it may sound cliche.. That is what it is.
'It is not you, it is me'

But i wish that i could say this without using a web log.. but that is my problem, i have too much difficulty doing that. Its too troublesome for everyone around me, including myself.

So i am trying to make myself better, i dont want to disappoint anymore people in my life. The pain is too deep, i've experienced it before but it was not this deep. I guess i could go on and keep blaming everything, "its because its computer", "its just not the same", "its all technologies fault". But if i keep going on like that, it will get me nowhere.

Now i have reach a point where i believe i cannot get any lower, if my life is like a concave up parabola then the only way left is up. I hope that it is only going to go that way and not be a concave down parabola, if it was concave down then i have already reached my maximum point and the only way left is down. Thinking like this - Mathematically - makes sense to me, but i know that life cannot be put onto a graph and explained through equations.

Now that i have written out that stuff, i cant stop thinking that my mind is moving too fast and my heart is not having a chance to decide. Were my actions too hasty? I just did not want to be troublesome to other people. I think that maybe if i have time to improve myself then i will not disappoint you. I know that i have kept everything too myself and was unable to speak clearly but that is just my problem that i want to fix. Most of my life i have been trying to do so but never success, after today i realized that the key to success. But the way i am going i do not want to hurt others, my feelings will get in the way and i will disappoint another person in my life that i do not want to.



This might be the last post on my web logg for now, until i find myself. If i cannot love myself then i cannot love someone else, the same as if i disappoint myself then i will disappoint others.



I wrote this in the hope that i can get better
even if its in the form of an indiscreet letter
i cannot disappoint you again
but i will never forget the times we had.


Focus 'G'. This is going to be hard to handle.




Hahahah looking back over this post it seems like one of those running away notes :P wow i feel kinda dumb posting it, i'll do it anyway.. even though i just wrote it to make me feel better.

haha 'G' you really are dumb sometimes ~.~

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Dragonfly - Spongecola

Maybe I'm a little addicted
Maybe I just Can't get out of this
Maybe it is just too soon to say

I've seen you blow right past my window
You flew away and I was left inside
Without a clue

But If you think that I am too stoned to write
Don't think twice

Free your mind
Don't let me down
We'll find a way to make it go away

I went ahead without direction
A form of semi-self-mutilation
Dragonfly collides with truth

Why can't you see me like I see you
Can't you feel me like I feel you
Can't you be with me tonight

I'll make it go away
(my dragonfly)

Saturday, September 12, 2009

So hows life ~

Life is great ^.^

i am feeling good, i finished most of my assignments and now i have lots of free time >.<
lately i was working on my basketball, practicing my shooting skills.. 6/10 is not that bad XD, i might be able to make it onto the B grade team >.<

hmmm

I wanted to swim in my pool today but i think it is a bit cold in the water. but i really want to practice my backflip, i havent done one in the pool for sooo long now, i think i may have forgotten how to do it ~.~

haha ohh well

this is a pretty short post ...

~so life is good~

i'm looking at a bright tomorrow ^.^

ingatz`

Peace

~OnlyGabs†az!~